Camilla: Pepparkaksstaden, del 15

 StarBeing, fourteen, stars

I believe in guidance,

in guidance I believe

-  yet, I do not seem to

believe

 in

myself

 

I grasp and grasp

and grasp,

fingernails bleeding,

splinters wedged

underneath them,

grasping still

at the outside,

at confirmation

that I

am allowed

to exist

 

I believe in guidance,

in guidance I

believe,

yet I cannot seem to see

what guidance

tells me

in this dark world

around me,

at this time

 

Darkness is there,

so that we can

see the Stars,

StarBeing.

 

I understand that,

yet why

can I not

see

the stars?

 

Because you must

wrap yourself

around them,

StarBeing.

Allow the darkness

to fold

to unfold,

challenge the wind,

embrace the rain.

 

I don’t know if I can.

 

You can,

StarBeing,

you can.

 

 

Cecilia Gotherstrom, Dec 2025