Somewhere far in the distance, echoes became more solid sounds. They grew like trees and Dennis poured into his physical body as if her were liquid.
This could not be right.
He felt awful. Everything ached.
His head was pounding so much he thought he might throw up.
He tried to open his eyes. It was all a blur, but he could feel his mother’s hand take his.
“Dennis. Honey.”
Mom was sobbing.
He tried to speak but no sound came out.
He was not at home. It smelled different and the sheets felt thick and rough.
He remembered exactly what had happened. Hot waves of shame and humilitation moved through his stomach. Ronald had hit him and kicked him.
Sebastian had shown him what Ronald’s life was like and Dennis had wanted to help him. This was the result. Why would the Dragons put him through suffering? He wished he could erase it all. Had he done something wrong? How could he have been so stupid? Giving Ronald his precious Golden Dragon.
He felt sick at heart.
It was too much.
He dived into unconsciousness, forgetfulness, numbness. The sound trees dissolved, mom disappeared.
In the silence, the big, black, comforting shadow. Sebastian.
“How could this go so wrong, Sebastian? I thought you guys were guiding all this.”
He was really, really close. Dennis could feel him more than he could actually see him.
“Dude. You did the right thing. You got the impuls to help him and you prayed for him. We all helped. But Ronald makes his own choices. We all do, man. He could have gone the other way and received your gift. He didn’t.
But the gift was really well-inteded and the gift was given. I know it doesn’t feel like it right now man but that is ALL that matters.
You will heal.
And you, or we Dragons, can never tell what will eventually happen as a result of your gift.
But there is one really important thing though, Dennis.
Right now you are carrying a big sadness.”
Dennis could feel the weight within him the moment Sebastian gave it a name.
“It is sadness about the cruelty you have come very close to, through Ronald. And there is so much of it on this planet. You have felt it since you were very small.
But, my brave friend, you must let it go. Or it will create illness in your body.
You need to learn the Dragon way.
You let go.
Let the sorrow go.
And you live, free, in this moment. And next time you feel the urge to help someone, you do that, again. And you stop trying to understand what the other being will do with your gift.
You sparkle.
You fly.
You breathe fire.
You wave away assholes with your tail now and then.
But the focus is always love.
That is the Dragon way, dude.”
The sadness felt like the ocean. It was larger than himself. How could people be so cruel, so heartless, so cold? How could people torture animals, small children, destroy nature?
He wasn’t ready yet, but he knew Sebastian was right.
He was going to stay here in non-being a bit longer.
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